Ashish Chowdhry’s heartfelt letter

Ashish Chowdhary pours out his heart at the death of his sister and brother-in-law in the gruesome Mumbai terror attacks. Read his letter below.“Iam not yet in the frame of mind to talk about the destruction of my family and their souls. But I’d still like to pen down my gratitude to you who stood by, called, SMSed and comforted me at a time when my whole world collapsed.If there’s anything that can hold me together now, they are the two small innocent lives, who in a matter of seconds, lost the two people who were their world. Kanishq (12) and Ananaya (7), “Pokey” and “Ducky” as I lovingly call them, are our little angels, who’ve lost more than what can ever be imagined.I know, my sister and my jiju, wherever they are, will still be worried about them. An entire battalion of people cannot match up to what they were as parents. Or take their place ever. But we are going to try hard and rebuild their lives.I stood there helpless and angry while strangers came and snatched away pieces of our hearts. I could do nothing but ask one question — why them? And the answer was a cruel silence that numbed me.The gaping wound will never heal and the anger will only stay hidden. I’m angry. Really angry. And I’m sorry for all of us who suffered. But we’ve gotta get a hold of ourselves.In this horrifying game of fate, the one thing we want to tell Monica and jiju is that today their children not only have four extremely loving grandparents but also a huge family of aunts, uncles and cousins that have so much love to give. The one thing that I want them to know is that they will always have a second set of parents in Samita and me.Please don’t take my silence and withdrawal of not talking as any form of disrespect. I have still not come to terms with what is real and what is not. Thank you for being there and I really mean it…”Well we feel really sad and sorry for Ashish and his sister’s kids, we just hope that God gives them strength to cope up with the biggest loss of their lives.